ramanda's Diaryland Diary

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in which amanda shows off another layout instead of writing her paper

12.18.01

4:36pm

Also, more shameless self promotion. Another new design.

4:32pm

This has been my theme song lately. A little love song for the girl I used to be.

I was wasted in the afternoon
Waiting on a train
I woke up in pieces and Elisabeth had disappeared again
I wish you were inside of me
I hope that you're ok
I hope you're resting quietly
I just wanted to say
Goodnight Elisabeth

We couldn't all be cowboys
So some of us are clowns
Some of us are dancers on the midway
We roam from town to town
I hope that everybody can find a little flame
Me, I say my prayers, then I just light myself on fire
And I walk out on the wire once again
And I say
Goodnight Elisabeth

I will wait for you in Baton Rouge
I'll miss you down in New Orleans
I'll wait for you while she slips in something comfortable
And I'll miss you when I'm slipping in between
If you wrap yourself in daffodils
I will wrap myself in pain
And if you're the queen of California
Baby I am the king of the rain
And I say
Goodnight Elisabeth.

I know you miss her. I don�t know where she went, or why, but I miss her too.

12:56pm

Listen to me for half a second.

I realize I�ve lost my way. I know I�ve been complaining that I don�t know what to do or where to start. I know this. Those are my words there. They�re the truth. Lately everything feels like a lie, but the truth is that I am lost and I don�t know where to start getting un-lost.

Listen to this too, because it is also true.

Just because I�ve lost my way doesn�t mean that your way is suddenly the right way. I don�t need you to tell me what to do, how to think, what to feel. I don�t need you to understand. I need you to give me a hug and tell me that you love me anyway, even if you don�t understand.

12:23am

Another layout. I'm in love with this one. I want it for myself. There's not much in this diary just yet, but I have it on good authority that she has real promise.

-A

12:22 a.m. - 12.18.01

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