ramanda's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- like a good book, I can't put this day back 01.20.05 5:09pm There is much to say. But work has been a total shit-storm all week and there just hasn't been time. I will, however, say this. I have not had three dates total in the last three months, let alone three in one week. But tonight I'm going on a second date. There are already plans for a third. And a fourth. It is much too fast and much too soon, but I am gritting my teeth and muddling through because this is the first boy I have met in ages that I am totally comfortable with. I can be myself with this boy. He laughs at all my stupid jokes. He showers me with compliments. And there is a voice, in the back of my head, that tells me that it's too much. That I don't deserve it. That there is an ulterior motive somewhere. That no one could possibly like me (me!) this much. But I am learning not to listen to that voice. Let's hope he doesn't give me reason to regret it. -A 5:09 p.m. - 01.20.05 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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